Honestly, I did. I wanted his job, his life. I wanted to go all over the world and experience things and have fun doing it. He’s now on my list of men that I would marry in a heartbeat if they asked me, along with Antonio Banderas, David Tennant, Hugh Jackman and Bill Bailey.
Last night I watched a documentary on Vikings on BBC2 with Neil Oliver – linky linky! http://www.bbc.co.uk/iplayer/episode/b01ms4xm/Vikings_Episode_1/ and this rekindled the desire to do that. My degree is Viking studies, so I watched the programme as avidly as I could, only getting mildly distracted by discussions with Hairy about Vikings, the Byzantine Empire, the Rus and all that jazz. I thought this was a really good introductory documentary; my only quibble is his love of the “civilising” influence of the Romans and Christianity – quite often he glossed over the importance of the oral tradition but I’m not going to be too picky about it.
But my problem now is that I want that job. I want to be a documentary presenter, I want to travel the world teaching and learning and exploring. One of my biggest fears right now is that I’m never going to accomplish my dream, that I’m just going to end up working in a dull job just for the money. That idea terrifies me but I’m also half resigned to the fact that it might happen to me. I’ve had so many ideas of things I want to do or be – an actor, a writer, model, David Attenborough, a teacher, market trader at festivals… None of those is an office clerk, but that’s the most prevalent job for someone like me and an office would drive me insane. I’m sure there are people out there who relish working in an office; they’re good at organising, time keeping, they have the skills you need to be awesome at that job.
I have none of those skills. I’m normally running late, I can never find anything and I don’t like being stuck inside. When I had a temping job as a data entry person last summer it was always an act – I dressed up in a costume, and pretty much didn’t talk to anyone while I was there. But I do have other skills – I’m an engaging conversationalist, I like to learn, I’m good at picking up languages, I have a good speaking voice (despite a crazy lisp when I was small!), I’m great with people, kids and animals, and I have a wicked sense of fun/humour. I also love imparting the odd bit of information (read I’ll ramble for ages if asked the right question!)
Now I just need a job where crazy hair, a lip piercing and an eclectic dress sense is an asset. I’m more than just a face, I’m a big personality and I’d be stifled in a pencil skirt and blouse. Sorry for the slightly sad undertone, but here’s a heart spill for you 😀
Do you have a scary dream that you’re worried about? Do you have any weird celebrity crushes?