My very own countdown to my deadlines, and it’s getting scary again. It’s actually a week until my first essay, eight days until my second and portfolio, and nine days until the dissertation is due in. I’m planning on handing it all in on Monday to save on hassle though, so fingers crossed I can get enough words done over the next week to make that possible. What is frustrating is that I have a meeting today with my amazing dissertation tutor, but as it means I have to go to campus I’ll have to walk there and back, effectively cutting out about 2 and a half hours of my day.
In order to ward off the evil essay spirits I’m in over the knee rainbow socks. Hopefully this will increase my productivity, although it won’t help my image with the people who live around here. I’m fairly sure they all know and judge me 😀
I had a film night around my friend’s house on Saturday which was incredible fun, although the day long hangover yesterday has reminded me why I don’t drink on an empty stomach. I spent most of the day moping around the house and cleaning the bathroom floor because I was sat on it feeling sorry for myself, and didn’t like that it was dirty. Then the bleach started making me light headed and even more icky feeling, so it was just a vicious cycle of yuck. C’est la vie, n’est-ce pas?
Turns out that I get rather worried when in company though, particularly with friends that I haven’t seen for a while. I had to keep telling myself that I had been invited because she enjoys my company, not just because she felt duty bound to ask me out of politeness. It’s a right pain to feel like that around friends, but I get it so often because I don’t see people on a regular basis so I assume that they only ask to see me because they feel like they ought to, not because they actually want to. It doesn’t help when I haven’t seen most of them since before Christmas but they’ve all had time to see each other and chat so I wasn’t up to date on the latest gossip. Third wheel at a film night. It got better though, but I do wish the social anxiety would find someone else to annoy!